She shot the bullet that ended that life

#randomfact : people often hides the camera when im in a vain mood. haha

i got the suprise of the day when my long distance close friend, Dania called saying she would be in Melawati any minute. through out i was getting ready, at a moment i did wonder why the heck she came all the way from Subang to Melawati, she would be lying if she said she just wanted to meet me, i mean...tht is tooooo sweet kay. haha. later i found out tht Farah, Hafriz and Dania wanted to suprise Aleen since her upcoming birthday which is tomorrow. the best part was, Aleen didnt expected at all tht they were going to do so. you should see her face when they all came up bringing the cake. speechless, hee hee.

we went touring around wangsa maju and melawati. we were supposed to meet someone but some people doesnt have the balls to do so. heh.

and, something i just learned today, never, and i mean never, disturbe a boy who's busy playing his so called Dota. you can die by waiting them to finish, hehe the end.

isnt this too adorable ;)

i love my girls, hehe

till then, love love

Give Travie a wish list

#randomfact : im the only one in the family who extremely loathe durians .

God knows how long ive been urging to get rid of my floral slash teddybear-ish wallpaper. i have to admit ive been having ths wallpaper since i was...err..9? when i heard mum wanted to paint my room, i got all exciteeed and in my heart kept yelling, FINALLYYYY! had to waited for two solid days for them the re-touched and wait fr the paint to completely dry.

so i hd to literally sleep in my lil brothers room for the time being. he was being the typical eh-theres-rules-okay-staying-in-my-room. no touching his study table, no sleeping nor laying on his bed, no messing with he's stuff or wht not. godd, i feel like choking when he tried to imitate me as i would always do tht to him whenever he comes to my room. hee hee but i ditched entirely wht he said and end up slept on his bed instead. suddenly flashback started to come back, we used to share the same room which is the room im currently staying in. we used to share secrets before we close the night light, we'll play UNO until our mum yelling us to sleep. ayy, good times

spent the evening with ma homies as usual fr Acc class. apparently our little teacher, Dinney was having really bad body cramps so we all layed on the sofa and watched Clueless instead. from the begiining of the movie until the end, jyeah. until Rahman and Meen dozed off on the floor :p out of the blue, dinney decided to go Melawati's bazaar, since we all had nothing better to do, we tagged along instead. it was my first time going (for ths year, of course) so i got all enthusiastic about it. Dinney, Rahman and i went with Ayie while the others went with Sya's mom and we met there.

oh! i just found out this bazaar eventually end up on tv3 recently. cool huh? it wasnt tht much but indeed i had fun this evening


and oh here are some pictures

my room during the painting process

i have such vain friends ;p

tada! :)

*in the picture the wall are white but actually is soothing creamy yellow :)

till then, love love

WATCH ME BURN

everybody know its hard to resist temptations when your only a young teenager


i on the other hand, to whom are close to me knows how much fragile i can be. i sometimes get too hooked up with people's criticism and compliment tht without notice, i changed into ths little monster.i admit, i was a trouble kid back then when i was 15. never in my life i thought i will face tht much drama in a very young age. neglected my parents, ditched my old friends, never gave a shit with people's comment, sneaking out and bitched about others. along the way, i lost whom i used to call bestfriend, i truly by ths moment realized my true friends are.

2008, the year when i turned into completely different girl. the year i was suppose to focus entirely on studies regarding pmr was months away,the official big turn on wht stream im going to take the following year but being the sellfsih i am, i set aside my first priority bcse i hv other "important" stuff to handle. the year i truly understande the true meaning of "backstabber". the minute you turn your back, there they go bitching about you all the way. the year i had to ensure everybodys feeling is at a good condition until a point that i neglected my own emotions. the year i first i tasted freedom. going out, coming back every late evening. the year i got into an enormous fight with my bestfriend, after i lost her it finally hit me tht i take life for granted. i never even bother to appreciate wht i have, i have a family tht loves me too much and wht did i do? i fucking disappointed them.

my brothers were worried sick of me, until it comes to a point tht they almost gave up. i cried whenever they come to me explain how hard it is to take care of me since im their only baby sister. mum and i was constantly fighting. we were never on the same page. i felt she was too protective, now it comes to my sense why she did tht all ths while. i was too rebellious too give a shit back then

i was in a relationship, long story short : everything got messed up. i cried every night, having insomnia and even locking myself in the room for hours. not wanting to communicate with people, just being isolated from everyone makes me at peace. listening to emo-ish type songs each and everyday, yeah tht was my daily routine

many people got hurt along the way just because I, a confused little girl did some mistakes. having your really close friend who's been with your for a solid 8 years say only two words "youve changed" really strucked me. when i look back, i didnt know my wrong doings would give such a big impact on people. i was too busy pleasing people and living my life tht i was blindsided that there were people who cared.

2009, i met new friends. friends who slowly by time guided me to the right path. felt ths comfortable vibe being around with them. the feeling being loved. i started to cut my regular outings, i had a stable relationship with my entire family, i gained back my true friends. i learned how to appreciate and treat people differently, not like i used too. when ths such things apparently happen to you in a life time, you couldnt thank more fr wht had happen because if i didnt go through that shit and ths on going roller coaster, i would never have my life that it is now


easy to say im pretty much in a good condition now :)

*and praise Allah s.w.t for that

Girl walkin' the spot, she stop traffic

randomfact : i just realised nobody evers call me Sha. its always, Zana, Naa, Zan Zan,

i would like to take ths golden opportunity to wish my dude, my budd my oh so coolest friend ever, Sheyra a big 17th birthday! looks like someone is legal to get behind the weels now ;p she's the person who never fails to make me burst into laughter, the person whom i can depend on laughing over my lame jokes. her lay back personality makes me aware tht she's such a good friend. every beginning of the year, us both will reunite for typical girl guides activity, camping and even softball. we used to walk back together since our homes isnt that far to each other. one of my favourite situation i had with her tht us three including, Ira (our other partner in crime) got blanked where to go after we skipped a surprise BBQ party, instead we walked 6 kilometres to Sakura Kristal and to top of tht we had our kawad competition tht tomorrow day! who knew a innocent looking girl like her is so full of adventures ;) ths may sound cheesy but i love her more than she loves her seasons of How I Met Your Mother. haha

TODAY,


surprisingly i had tasawwur and agama class early in the morning. i was so pumped up fr ths day bcse of the fact my favourite cousins are coming fr ths tahlil and get-to-gather-feast held at my house. it feels good being around blood related because they are the person who i can just wear my baggy tee with my ponytail. proudly to say i cooked 1/4 of the meal tht night, hahaha. the minute they arrived they're jaw dropped seeing my chopping onions in the kitchen. haha so mean -.- berbuka puasa together

Dad and uncles went right upstairs to watch Chelsea's match. the others and i played a game "Guess" so technically one of us has to draw a picture and guess wht it is. at first i really thought they wouldnt even understand wht i drew bcse i was not gifted with natural artsy fartsy skills but apparently i just found out tht they sucked more thn i do :s hahah expect fr Afiq, he's one talented twelve year old ;) we even manage to have supper together regarding the man's were still chilling upstairs. had pasta, mini fruit tarts and creamy cupcakes they brought. had a long talk with my unbiological sister, Nadia. its good to know tht ill be following her footsteps in taking course in phycology. i was asking so many questions which i think she got tired answering it haha :s

Always love the feeling my home full with love ones :) AND OH the picture with me in the telekung is before we all went to terawih hehe


till then, love love